smokeless

OK...this is it. Last cig @ 8 a.m. Patch on at 8:01 a.m.
I must say as this day grew closer my mind was filled with many thoughts. Some random...some not so random. Panic of course placing first. But, also a hope and joy for new beginnings. But...panic is still trying to win the thoughts race.
I so look forward to not being the "smoker" in the group. Not having to leave...stand out in the cold to grab a few secretive PUFFS! Walking into a room and realizing that even though you washed your jacket...it still smells like smoke. I mean really! What non-smoker wants to hug an ashtray!
Wish I had started the St. Johns wort weeks ago...It helps take the edge off the cravings. Oh well...hope that all the peeps who love will understand the bugged out eyes, and clinched teeth! I'm sure that the f word will be a flyin'!!!